shewaswarned: (and keep it behind lashes)
2013-02-12 02:34 pm
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It doesn't take a genius - or a lawyer, even - to know that Valentine's Day isn't going as planned. Ellen spends the majority of the afternoon testing her limitations on the only audience she has at this point - Zeus, who doesn't seem fairly inclined to care whether she's telling the truth or not. In the end, it only makes her more frustrated and she stays silent for the remainder of her waking hours, pouring herself a glass of wine to enjoy on her front porch, alone.

She is grateful for the company of her dog, who can always sense when something is wrong and who always proceeds to drape himself over her lap as a result. She falls asleep on the couch with him on the floor beside her, one hand absently drifting into his fur.

When she wakes up, there's nothing more than a crick in her neck and a wet nose nudging at her arm to get her to rise, and she stretches in the rumpled clothes she's slept in as Zeus licks at her fingers. "Good boy," she murmurs, almost absently - and then her eyes snap open with the revelation that it's the first truth she's been able to utter since before yesterday. The morning hours pass in a whirlwind - she showers, dresses, and then leaves a whining Zeus indoors with a promise to let him outside later for play before taking off for Matt's at a near-run.

It's late enough, she thinks, that she won't be waking him up - he's an early morning riser - but she doesn't want to wait until he comes back to hers, tapping at his front door in a flurry of knocking before it opens and everything she's been dying to say falls from her lips in a rush.

"I'm sorry," she declares, still slightly winded, her hair damp and wavy from air-drying. "You're - you're not mediocre, you couldn't be farther from mediocre, and the other night was amazing, but really I haven't learned to expect any less from you, and I promise I know perfectly well what color the sky is, or that you're blind, or that your relationship with my dog is like walking on eggshells at best. I hate that the island managed to screw up everything up, but I'm so, so sorry, and I love you, and did I mention I was sorry?"
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2013-02-02 08:43 pm
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The light streaming through the window is what wakes her first; then, shortly after that, the warmth and pressure of an arm strewn across the small of her back. She's fallen asleep on her stomach again, cheek resting against the pillow, and she can feel Matt's breathing, slow and even, against the back of her neck. Somehow she's adjusted to sleeping with someone else in her bed again. After David, she wasn't sure if she would ever get used to that presence, that weight and that proximity.

She manages to extricate herself delicately, slipping out from underneath his arm and sliding into her robe on the chest at the foot of the bed before padding into the kitchen on bare feet. From his dog bed, Zeus' head pops up and he yawns, stretching into standing. She puts the coffee on and lets him outside to run and sniff and stretch his legs, the sun barely up.

The coffee finishes brewing, but Zeus hasn't come in yet, so she pours herself a mug and steps out onto the porch with it, taking a small sip and watching him explore.
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2012-06-11 10:36 am
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There's a reason she hadn't decided to sign up for yoga after she'd heard Matt was taking over the job from the previous teacher - another person who had disappeared as unexpectedly as the rest. More accurately, she hadn't heard it through the grapevine - Matt had just come right out and mentioned it to her during one of their date nights, and she'd felt the need to mention that she wasn't going to be signing up this time around.

She's probably being ridiculous for refusing to take a class taught by someone she's involved with. Technically, the relationship they've fallen into started after she'd been sitting in on his lectures. But she's at least willing to settle for learning one-on-one, and it's why she's cleared a spot in the middle of her hut for the two of them so he can walk her through the moves. Her ponytail hangs forward over one shoulder as she leans into a stretch, craning her neck to watch him in an attempt to mimic his movement.

"So be honest," she says, between breaths, "how am I doing so far?"
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2012-05-04 09:34 am
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These evenings feel a little more comfortable once the island goes back to normal. The days are warm in a different way, the air tinged with salt, and the evenings are cooler, meaning that it's possible for one to sit out on the porch with a glass of wine, a growing puppy fast asleep at one's feet.

However, it's nights like these that Ellen's grateful to have company sitting in the chair beside her, and she glances over at Matt without lifting her head, letting it lazily shift against the back of the chair. Her half-empty glass is clasped loosely in one hand; under her legs, Zeus shifts and rolls, kicking out too-big paws in his sleep.

"They've started Council nominations again," she murmurs, picking up the conversation as the subject springs to mind. "And you'll never guess whose name I saw on the list today."
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2012-03-14 10:07 am
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It strikes Ellen all of a sudden, as she's sitting on the front steps of her hut - she hasn't truly allowed herself to dwell in the disappearance of yet another friend. She hadn't been as close to Ianto as others - she'd only just started to get to know his wife - but she'd started to consider him as something more than a casual acquaintance, and to find out he's one of the more recent to have vanished - it's leaving her somewhat at a loss.

The puppy she's adopted from the newest litter born on the island is doing more to lift her spirits than she originally realized. He's playful, sweet, and follows her just about everywhere she goes - which is probably a good thing, since he's not completely hut-trained yet and too little to be left alone. He'd been nameless for a couple of weeks before she decided to name him, and since Zeus is often affiliated with justice, it feels like an amusingly appropriate moniker. He's tired out from an afternoon of playing fetch on the beach and sits curled up at her feet, one paw lightly twitching as she runs her fingertips through his soft fur in a repetitive movement.

Her thoughts turn to Matt, after a moment, and the accompanying pang in her chest surprises her more than her thinking of him to begin with. She doesn't want to turn into one of those clingy women who absolutely needs to see the person she's slowly becoming more and more involved with every single day, but in the wake of recent disappearances, maybe he won't hold a visit against her. She leashes Zeus up - he might not need the leash to stay close to her, but it's getting late and she doesn't want to let him run too far in the dark - and takes the path up to his hut. She might not need an excuse for a visit, but she's still trying to come up with one anyway as she knocks on the door, listening for any sounds inside.
shewaswarned: (easy to be around)
2012-02-05 07:30 pm
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Matt's instructions for showing up to dinner are fairly simple: come as you are. But the houseguest in her - or hut-guest, more accurately - insists on bringing something whenever she's invited over to anyone's place, and it's a habit started in New York that seems to have carried over to Tabula Rasa, regardless of the fact that she doesn't need to worry about impressing anyone, or climbing any particular social ladders. She brings a bottle of the island-brewed wine anyway, hoping it will somehow fit with the theme of the meal he's planning, and starts her walk over a little earlier than necessary, since it looks as though it might be dark by the time she arrives.

Her directions take her to the second path that veers right from the boardwalk she takes starting at the lifeguard stand, and if she's got it right, that means his hut is the first one on the left once she makes that turn. Praying she's remembered his instructions correctly, she makes her way up to the door and knocks, shifting her weight back slightly and then speaking up once she hears sounds from within.

"Matt? It's Ellen," she calls out, hoping to be heard through the door.
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2011-12-30 10:10 am
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By the time the island goes back to normal, Ellen's realizing that she doesn't have many complaints to speak of. Her gift from the island had arrived shortly after the snow had disappeared, though the sudden arrival of an armoire filled with new clothes in her bedroom hadn't gone without some suspicion on her part. Only after talking about it with friends had she realized that this seemed to be a yearly happening, maybe the island's way of making it up to them for everything they'd been put through over the past year - and then she almost laughs at herself, for starting to consider the island as some sort of higher power, personifying it, though the other option (magic) sounds just as ridiculous, if not moreso.

She's grateful that the armoire arrived when it did. Everything inside is definitely not considered Victorian-era wear, more beach appropriate with a few nicer dresses mixed in for some of the parties she'll go to this year. She's had some luck with the clothes box - the little black dress, in particular, worked in her favor - but she's given up on finding anything designer since then.

She dons a sundress at the first available opportunity and steps out into warmth instead of winter chill, taking a deep breath of salty ocean air, and sets off down the beach to the dock she likes to sit out on, only a few minutes away from the hut she calls her own. It takes her a little while to reach the end of the dock once she starts walking, but after she gets there, she realizes she isn't alone.

"Matt," she murmurs, greeting the unexpected company by name before she crosses the space to stand next to him. "Hey."
shewaswarned: (always on my mind)
2011-11-09 09:51 am
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Ellen's next trip to the clothes box is slightly successful. It gives her more than a sundress, at least. And in her conversations with others, she's finding out more and more about this place. Like the fact that there's more than just the bar — or the pub, at least. There's two, if you count the one that serves food in addition to drinks, but it's not a meal she's after. She needs to be out, to avoid the inevitability of allowing herself to stay cooped up in her room for too long. It's when she's alone with her thoughts that it becomes dangerous. She thinks of David, too often, and she needs to give herself the chance to forget, at least for now.

She's not going to let herself feel guilty. She's not even going to allow herself to dwell. Instead, she's going to take a seat at the bar, wearing a white dress patterned with flowers that miraculously fits her like a glove, her shoulders and cheeks tinged pink from the sun, and as she orders herself a martini, it's almost starting to feel like she's back at home. She closes her eyes, anticipating the sound of the cabs outside, the occasional horn blaring, the noise of Manhattan streets in the evening. Instead, a slight breeze from beyond the coverings brings in a burst of warm air, and when she breathes in, she can smell the sea salt still lingering.

Ellen sighs audibly, reaches for her drink as it comes, and takes a long, long sip, exhaling softly as she sets the glass back down on the bar. Her gaze trails down towards the other end, locking onto the unfamiliar slope of a pair of shoulders, and she finds herself momentarily transfixed.
shewaswarned: (sidedish friend)
2011-10-20 01:08 pm
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These really aren't ideal walking shoes Ellen's chosen, but then again, she didn't exactly anticipate walking up the side of what could legally be termed a mountain - and she's a lawyer, after all, she's rife with legal terms. Somehow, by the grace of something (she stopped believing in higher powers a long time ago, especially after everything that happened to David), she makes it up with little incident, even if she has to bemoan the state of her shoes upon their arrival at the very top. Glancing over at Eames, he seems used to the whole trip, though she can't picture him making it multiple times every day. Maybe that makes his appearances among the general island population all the more appreciated. The giant V catches her eye and she hides a smile to herself for the most part, until the ground finally levels out and they're standing in front of the rather impressive home. The exterior alone doesn't exactly seem suited to a man of his taste, but the square footage alone looks pretty significant compared to the other huts scattered around the island.

"The view'd better be good," she says, but she's only mildly out of breath, cheeks flushed slightly as she smooths both hands over the front of her dress, adjusting the hem. "Really, if I'd known we were going to be participating in a good climb I would've packed some better shoes for this." She tilts her hips to one side, glancing back over one shoulder and lifting a foot to examine the mud caked on the bottom of her heels. When she sets her foot back down, she narrows her eyes at him, but there's no malice behind it, only playfulness. "And I might have to insist on you finding me replacements for this pair."
shewaswarned: (better that we break)
2011-10-20 09:44 am
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[Continued from here.]

I might be starting to sober up at this point, but I can't really tell. My heart feels like it's close to practically beating straight out of my chest, but my hands aren't warm to the touch. I can tell they're as cold as ice against his, as his practically envelopes mine despite the fact that our fingers are tangled. I look up at him and it's strange, how much changes on his face as we walk down the path together, how the shadows age him and the light makes him look even younger, almost like a little boy. It strikes me then that I don't know that much about him, how old he is or even where he's originally from, what his story is. And then it strikes me that he doesn't know anything about me, not really, in much of a similar vein, and so I stop worrying, stop thinking, and my gaze starts to track the line of his shoulders instead, the sloping curve that delves down into long arms.

"We don't even know where we're going, do we?" I murmur out loud, stopping beneath the shadow of a nearby tree, looking up and up, higher and higher, above our heads, until I can squint into the darkness, my eyes making out the shape of a house as they adjust. It's dark up there, literally no sign of life, but it's a house, and it's in a tree, and something about that strikes me as infinitely funny. The hand that isn't holding his points upward, and I chuckle softly, my mind immediately racing with the possibilities. "What about there?"